Donnerstag, 13. Juni 2013


For everyone thinking that this is going to be really interesting: Maybe. For all the others thinking I have a problem with authority in general: Wrong. I respect authority. Best seen in the fact that I really want to become a police officer and therefore shall be respected as a person holding authority. Alas, as we know in germany that is rarely the case. However, I am getting off topic.

My problem with authority in this way is the fact that it is sometimes given to people without them earning it in any way or are actually able to be a respectfull person. Now it can be difficult to act as a person with authority but in certain positions in our world it is needed. Very needed.

As an example I am going to take my late work: There I had a lot of people standing above me, careerwise and were therefore in charge of me and telling me what to do. However, in some cases I am not even the only one wondering how some of them were set as persons in charge. Bosses. Why is he our boss, if he doesn't even really know what the hell we are doing here? Yep, a very common question in my late workplace.

Now, there is particular person I would like to address there. It's a woman, but that is not the problem. She was working in a different part of my work before and was later assigned as my boss with no knowledge of what we were doing exactly. And that woman is supposed to tell me how to do my job? Really? I will not even go so far to say that, in general, my respect for a person with authority has to earned. If you are not able to tell me "Shut up and do your job right" in the face, I will not respect that person. Regardless of their position on the paper.

There is another catch to my story of that woman. Later, I actually found out that her contract to work with us would not have been prolonged, if she had not applied for that assignment as my boss. So someone who was meant to be thrown out anyway is now boss in my former workplayer. Yep, that really happened.

See the problem? Authority is handed out like candy to persons who do not deserve or can handle it correctly... Actually, that is a good summary, I will end it with that.

'till next time.

Donnerstag, 6. Juni 2013


Hello there. It has been quite some time now, has it not? Whether there will be someone to read this is up to the stars to tell, but I will happily continue writing, considering it is one of my mostly done hobbies. I really spent a lot of time writing, I even have two novels to write right now and it is fun as hell! There are so many ideas that I still want to put in them and if I think about it - they probably will not be finished untill 2017. It already took me three years to get where I am now, so it is not very unrealistic.

But back to business. I have been very busy during the time of not writing and there are many reasons. I am still as strong willed as ever, but I still lack the self-esteem to encounter women, which is what I have been workin on for a while now. Alas, that is not important. The most important thing is that all my trials to become a police officer are over. And I passed them all! Therefore, beginning on October 1st, my studies will continue. The bad thing about it being that I will have to move to another town and I really am not the person for a move to a different place.

However, I am still looking forward with my eyes wide open to see where humanity will go to continue their descend to hell. Since I am no angel myself, even though I love the image of that, there is a chance of me holden open the door in hell. Or I am gonna sit in purgatory. I propably should not have read the Divine Comedy, makes my picture of the afterlife very blurry.

Anything else happened? I am going to quit my job for my co-workers are such big jerks that I just can not stand to get along with them, even if it is just untill October. The reason? Will be mentioned in another post, which, of course, will be back on a 13th. Which one I do not know yet.

Fare thee well.